It’s a great question: who am I?
We all endeavor to know who we really are as we consider life and ponder our future. Like baking a cake, we throw our dreams and desires into the mix and stir. Then we add our emotions and personality like half a cup of water, not forgetting to sift an outside opinion or two like flour, and then see what happens when it comes out of the oven.
Like in the kitchen the same is often times in life – sometimes it works out as anticipated and hoped for and other times it’s a flop. We go through life with hit and miss outcomes. Like changing seasons, who we are can represent the joys of summer as if life is like a beach-side holiday. On other days, who we are feels like the depths of a long, dark hard winter… who am I, will I ever see the sun?
I think the answer lies in a deeper question, a search for something that is greater than who I am but rather Whose I am! When I find my ‘self’ in God I begin to find myself. I know that sounds cryptic but I’m learning what seems like a simple truth to actually be real. In its simplest form my real self shines brightest when God is at the centre of my world, when He is at the core of who I am and who I want to be.
Like the prodigal son who left his identity behind and traded it for what he thought looked like a better alternative, when he hit the bottom of the barrel, eating with the pigs, the bible says ‘he came to himself’ – translation: he found himself again and went home, back to his true self in his Father’s house. Christian writer and thinker Brennan Manning wrote in his book Abba’s Child, ‘In learning who He is, you will find out who you are.’
Acts 17 says something I find interesting: verse 28 ‘For in Him we live and move and have our being.’
The suggestion, no identity crisis or misgivings here, in Him we find a life worth living. A person to like, though we have cracks and flaws – when chasing God, when chasing light, I discover the best of who I am and who I want to be.