In times past I would have never made this admission. I would have seen it as a bad confession. Words matter I know, I’ve quoted Proverbs 18:21 verbatim like any other faith based evangelical spirit-filled believer should, but there is a danger that I have been friends with. It’s a subtle deception that can cause me to believe that brokenness is a bad place to be. We as the head and not the tail have no business with brokenness. Though through the years I’ve learned that my brokenness breaks me and this is often a necessity, for in my mess I find God.
For this reason we explore David’s song, the chorus always brings him home to his Heavenly Father.
Psalm 51, we find this shepherd king reaching for redemption. He has returned to humility after his humanity caused him shipwreck. At the time Kings were at war, David was in ruin (2 Samuel 11:1) — it’s all about geography.
“Have mercy on me, O God according to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.”
Brokenness always leads to repentance, repentance always leads to a turn around, I like to refer to it as ‘coming home’. Consider as a context the prodigal son.
Paul builds this theme in 2 Corinthians 7:10 when he writes, “Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret…”
What stood two kings apart was this ‘Godly sorrow’ – David displayed this, Saul only showed the kind of sorrow that is filtered through regret but not a desire to change.
David knew how to look in the mirror, he never avoided the dirty reflection that stared back at him, instead he ruthlessly demanded change and asked God for help.
“Cleanse me with hyssop and I will be clean; wash me and I will be whiter than snow.”
David never dodged the truth, he never denied his humanity, he put God in the middle of it.
“Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.”
David recognises his brokenness and surrenders to God so He can fix it.
Somehow David finds truth, in my brokenness I find God!
What a lesson.